Monday, May 30, 2016

Memorial Day 2016

On this strangled memorial day
I visit no tree or forgotten grave
Like I used to do for my mother
And the willow I couldn't save.
But in crevices of fading memories,
Of when I dared to think we were free,
I pry their stones from stars and stripes
With the hope that we soon will be.



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, May 27, 2016

Love Does No Harm

 The God of pure Love and Light
Does not inflict illness and pain.
I hope everyone finds the Truth
Until freedom has been regained.

  Sometimes, when I look back over the years and into the targeting's effect on some of the older parts of my work, I feel like its all wasted, all ruined and not worth a thing. (Much of it does not apply to the targeting situation.) And targets like me, naturally launch into misplacing blame - when we are not aware of being targeted we blame only those who are obviously acting out because we are not aware of the manipulations and technological mind control. My old writings have a lot of this in them. (This theme ran strong in my "Personal Journal" and "Into the Light" publications.) I feel deeply sad about this, although it makes them a good example of what a heavy target goes through or is manipulated into.
   I had worked so hard and had a grand dream and mission and it now feels destroyed - like it was all just a sad waste. But this makes me yearn for my freedom even more, because time is still wasting and there's already too much to heal and too much to fix and too much to explain and too much to make up for. . .and I can not effectively do any of it while being targeted.
  When I was not aware of the targeting, and its sabotaging of my life and work I searched for the "Higher Purpose" to what I was experiencing. I didn't find it, because there was none. There is no "Higher Purpose" to intentional man-made inflictions/crimes. But good can come from bad things. And a good thing may be that, since I have become aware, I've been able to help expose the types of targeting that I’ve been experiencing.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

"Same Kind of Different as Me"

"Same Kind of Different as Me"

I read it two times, both about the same
The heart wrenching and heart touching
Twisting of fates in unknown lethal games.
"Apocalyptic" for Deborah's tortured need
To live and grow and let her Heart's love
Plant yellow flowers and spread seeds.
Then the "wisdom" from an old TI
That blamed God for the dark,
Which also twitched his sorry eye
Where microwaves hit their mark.
God, help them until they know
The targetings they ALL sustained.
A lethal darkness hurt that show
And is all that can be rightly blamed.
The God of pure Love and Light
Does not inflict illness and pain.
I hope everyone finds the Truth
Until freedom has been regained.

   This poem was inspired by the book, "Same Kind of Different as Me," which is a great true story that can touch the heart in ways that can make the reader laugh and cry and gain appreciation for those rare gems in our world - the ones who value heart above money and can care and give unconditionally. When I read it a felt, behind the scenes, another satanic microwave targeting and cruel torturing of the good - of Deborah.

Warm Tears

Warm Tears 

When warm tears, filled with pain,
Slide down a victim's fading face
Don't wipe them away - just let them stay
For all of the human race.



   This morning, as I lay in the back of my car thinking about the technological targeting and enslavement of humanity. . . warm tears slid down the side of my face. As I thought of reaching up to wipe them away, my heart cried, "Don't wipe them away - just let them stay for all of the human race." So I did. I let them stay. Then I sat up to write this poem. And then I was tortured for it - a sudden infliction of pain to the back of my head. But I kept writing and the next three poems weaved their way into my notebook.

Something Has to Change

Something Has to Change 
When wars for freedom
Destroy the little that's left,
And minds die while Hearts cry
Around souls shoved off a cliff;
When victims fall one by one
With no place left to grope
For what is needed and is gone
Or just some remnant of hope,

Something Has to Change


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Insaned

Insaned

God help the victims,
Who are set to blame,
And the bits of awareness
That they have insaned
In throws of the darkest
Covert wars and games.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

The List

The List

When I saw it my heart cried,
"Oh, please just take me off
Your sorted list of judged ones
Who have lost their loved ones
And are imprisoned by the game,
The watch list of targets chosen
To outlive someone else's shame."

Its just another Schindler's List
That is there to remind us
Of voids of the Love we miss.
Please list us all as saved
By all that is openly nice
Instead of remaining enslaved
Inside that judgment's vice.


 Please visit this web site; www.targetedinamerica.com

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Mind Control Conversation



Technological mind control is being performed on humanity.


No its Not!


What makes you think its not?


I don't know.


This is the way its been. Please help technological and pharmaceutical mind control to be realized and stopped.


You don't believe it because you have been brainwashed.

Really?

Really. The Heart of humanity needs to stand up and save itself from further destruction.
OK. I'll stand with you. Thank you for telling me.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Melting in the Microwaves!


   Please help save the HEART of humanity.
www.heartbud.com
This is not my picture.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Truly Let Go

 I hope God shines Light
Into this darkest night -
Touching Hearts
Around the globe
Until the enslaved
Are TRULY let go.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Which Side?

 I am not on this side or that side.
I still stand too painfully alone.
I am not a perp or running to hide.
I'm trapped under crow's dark choice.
But my heart cries out on line.
Doesn't anyone hear my voice?

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, May 16, 2016

Honest and Real

 I long for our world to return
To being honest and real -
No more covert programs
And more care we can feel.

   This feeling has been growing as time goes on. Enslaved mind control victims, are forced to follow the covert program instead of their own hearts. They are shallow shadows of what they should be - puppets for their self appointed masters. Being surrounded by too much of this, for too long, makes the whole world feel unworthy of trust and way too void of depth. Its heart wrenching to notice the scope of how many are enslaved. And its excruciating to be constantly harassed by,  and even pushed to join, the program that enslaved them. I do not ever want to be a puppet and I feel sad for those who are. But I feel sad for myself too. I miss everything that has been being taken away from humanity. I miss the way the world could be without technological and pharmaceutical mind control and human enslavement. After being surrounded and harassed by the program, for too long, every fiber of my heart and soul cries for a world that is free and solid and real and honest and deep and genuinely caring. I think we all need our freedom back.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

A Horrible Catch Twenty Two

In the bigger picture
You are all victims too.
But in the smaller scope
I am being hurt by you -
Entrapped and imprisoned.

Its a horrible catch twenty two.
:-(
Please stop what you do.
 

Hope in the Phantom

I put hope in the phantom
Of what I wish could be.
God, help all of them
And us... including me.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Enslavement "home"

When "home" is a prison
That aims to enslave,
Where can a heart go
In broken time saved?

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, May 12, 2016

The Raven

 The raven flew in to
Sit on the handicapped sign
Just before again sitting at
The table next to mine.
So smooth, so suave
Though out of place
That fake little smile
On his brazen face.
How dare he call me
His "friend" or say
To "thank" what be?
The ravens need Hearts
And to also be set free.
But I don't want them
Sitting so close to me.

I moved.

But was it him or was it her and how can clarity fill the covert blur?

.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

I Wish Humanity Would Stand For Freedom

   If the main stream media continues to not expose the mind control and covert enslavement of humanity there are many things that can be done;
   Government officials, common citizens, military...etc., could step out and peacefully line  sidewalks while holding signs that say things like, "No More Technological and Pharmaceutical Mind Control" and "No More Human Enslavement" and "No More Covert Programs and Wars" and "Humanity Stands for Freedom" until humanity's Freedom has been restored. I understand that other things would have to happen too. . .and I hope they do.
  People who have influential titles and positions could do videos in private and then share them in various ways. People who have enough financial resources could do their own information papers, billboards and ads on TV and in news papers...etc. 

IT IS NOT "too late."

www.targetedinamerica.com
No more ugly black sunglasses.
No more measure of the classes.
No more covert wars and ways.
No more darkness in our days.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Manipulations

Manipulations breed misplaced blame,
Misplaced guilt and misplaced shame,
As twisted tables turn in a covert game.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Please Stand Up and Set Humanity Free

   I am again begging good people in influential places, around the globe, to PLEASE expose and stop human enslavement in the covert program. PLEASE expose and stop the mind control program. Please stand up and call for a global discontinuation of criminal use of all the technologies, pharmaceuticals, chemicals...etc., that are being used to harm humanity, the Earth and its atmosphere. Please protect heavily targeted people from further harm. Please help victims, and their loved ones, to understand what has been happening to them so that they can fully recover. Please stand up and set yourselves and the rest of humanity free.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way
through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND
that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

www.targetedinamerica.com

Wednesday, May 4, 2016

The Donald Trump Dilemma

 I am deeply concerned that technological mind control may be preventing honest voting...etc.


   Update; This is the original post; I find the fact that Trump has had so much support from the media and the general public really disturbing. How can a man like Trump be winning over the integrity that people like John Kasich has displayed? And has Kasich really been forced out of the race? It just doesn't make sense to me. . .unless, aside from Trumps rude intimidation tactics. . .,  technological mind control or false vote counts are helping him win.
   I am sorry if this offends anyone. (I am being lasered in the back of my neck as I write it!) But I truly am deeply concerned about what could happen to America, and the rest of humanity, if a man like Trump were to actually become our president during this critical point in time. I have not followed much of the debates, but the little that I have seen has left me feeling shocked that a man like Trump is running for presidency and appears to actually have a chance of winning. How on earth can this be happening to America? How??? Please search for the honest answer until you find it.
    We desperately need our next president to have the Heart to truly care about the safety and welfare of all people, the Wisdom of experience, the integrity to treat people with kindness and respect, good communication skills, and the courage to publicly stand up against things like the technological and covert targeting of humanity. But how can that happen under the constraints of technological mind control and who knows what other types of covert manipulations?
    Technological Mind control can interfere with a lot of things; It can brainwash masses of people and interfere with our natural process of thinking and feeling and growing into all that we were meant to be.

  [Update; This is what it turned into;]   No matter what is or isn't happening, we desperately need our next president to have the Heart to truly care about the safety and freedom of all people, the wisdom of experience, the integrity to treat people with kindness and respect, good communication skills, and the courage to publicly expose, and peacefully stand up against, things like the technological and pharmaceutical targeting and enslavement of humanity. But how can that happen under the constraints of technological mind control and who knows what other types of covert manipulations?

Technological Mind control can interfere with a lot of things; It can brainwash masses of people and interfere with our natural process of thinking and feeling and growing into all that we were meant to be. Please help set America Free. And the same for the rest of humanity.

God help America
The picture of Trump is from; https://www.google.com/?gws_rd=ssl#q=Donald+Trump
Picture of Kasich is from; https://www.yahoo.com/news/john-kasich-suspends-presidential-campaign-161615255.html

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Let Heart Lead

Let Heart Lead

What part of "NO" do you not understand?
You can not force me into a covert hand.
Your wars are not what I want or need.
Please let your Hearts take the lead.
Please stand up and stop the wars.
Let Freedom ring louder than before.
Set the poor unaware puppets free
And stop harassing people like me.

   As I wrote the previous post, two loud puppets sat next to me and continued to try to message me even after I took a picture of them and told them about the covert program that is using and hurting people. I'd hoped that they'd go away and leave me alone. But, one of them appeared to have left the table to ask his leader what he should do about my confronting them and then continued. . .even trying to provoke me by saying that they are voting for Trump. (God help us!) I was able to ignore most of what they said. I ended up putting on earphones and blasting music, which I hummed to. It drowned the rest of it out, except for the loudly repeated, "Lets go." They are still trying to force me into obedience and enslavement, especially now that they have me trapped - my car disabled in a parking lot.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

A Bit Less of a Load

A bit less of a load

An early morning vision
Shone Light for me to feel
In a place of utter peace
Which I wish were real.

I woke to horns blaring,
Microwaving of my brain
And the sad realization
That all is still the same.

On these days when crows
Are chasing other crows
Exactly what is happening?
I wonder, but who knows.

The early vision still clings
To a place now consoled
And I am left carrying
A bit less of a load.

   As the vision ended I heard a horn blare two times outside my car, as if to say "No, that can not happen." The vision was of me alone in a peaceful place, wearing a white robe and saying that there is more I can do to help humanity. (This was an answer to the prayer, which I had silently prayed last night.)  After this vision, and blaring of horns, I fell back to sleep and had a dream of being put, with two other people, in a house that was built into an unstable, sandy embankment. (more distress!)
   They really do read minds and project dreams into our brains with psychotronic weapons. Lately I have been experiencing another round of projected dreams, which seem to be giving me ultimatums - showing that I will get money and a nice home only if I leap into enslavement - only if I disappear. And that it will be held in poverty if I stay here...etc. Its all too horribly intrusive and it prevents me from trusting my own dreams and visions.
   But today I prefer to pretend, for a while, that this morning's good vision was real, and the perpetration horns never honked it out. . .so that I can feel a bit less scared.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Yearn for Freedom

   This video really hits my heart. This sort of yearn for freedom from the prison, and yearn for care from fellow human beings, surely bleeds from the hearts of all long term Targeted Individuals as well as many other people. I've shared this song on my other blog, but it is so packed with feeling, from a man whom I feel was heavily targeted, that it deserves another post. (This video was erased, as I aimed to post it, by those who target me and have my computer infiltrated. I guess there's a message in that.)

 I imagine myself singing this song to God - the REAL God.

Will you be there by Micheal Jackson

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dE4YrrAAGk 

The lyrics cry from the kind of pain and loneliness that 
only a heavily Targeted Individual could fully understand. . .

"Hold me, like the river Jordan
And I will then say to thee,
You are my friend.
Carry me, like you are my brother.
Love me like a mother.
Will you be there?
I'm weary. Tell me will you hold me?
When wrong, will you scold me?
When lost will you find me?
But they told me a man should be faithful
And walk when not able

And fight till the end but I'm only human.
Everyone's taking control of me!

Seems like the world's got a role for me! 

I'm so confused! Will you show to me 
You'll be there for me and care enough to bear me?
(Repeated)
Show me. Hold me. Love me and free me.
Kiss me and free me. I will feel blessed.
Lift me up slowly. Carry me. Hold me.
Carry me there. Save me. Heal me and bathe me.
Softly you say to me, I will be there.
Lift me - lift me up slowly.
Show me you care. Carry me there.
I get lonely sometimes. Hold me.
  Free me. Love me and free me.
 Carry me. Hold me. 

(Spoken)
In my darkest hour - in my deepest despair

Will you still care? Will you be there?
In my trials and my tribulations,
Through our doubts and frustrations,
In my violence, in my turbulence,
Through my fear and my confessions,
In my anguish and my pain,
Through my joy and my sorrow,
In the promise of another tomorrow,
I'll never let you part for you're always in my heart."


   I had watched the movie - "Free Willy" with my children in the early 1990s. I had not cognitively known, at that time, that I was imprisoned, in my own home, through being held under surveillance and covertly targeted. But part of me knew and I cried like  baby in the end of it. I still get goose bumps watching the heart of a little boy help Willy jump the wall into freedom. Sadly, our Freedom depends on other people exposing and stopping the covert program, its enslavement of human beings and the technological and pharmaceutical mind control that is being used on humanity.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Covert Sickness

Covert Sickness

In a world turned ill with covert sickness
Its the honest and real that is sorely missed.

Twisted puppets jab a victim's rawest pains
Where nothing is clear and no one explains.

Ads and songs rip at a raw bleeding heart
When media is used by the sorted dark.

The vile sickness lures with a mask
Of help and good to finish their task.

Oh, wash it away. This just can not be.
Light the covert dark and set us all free.

Those who are used to harass heavily targeted individuals, like myself, are often victims too - they are puppets who are used by those who target me.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Where's the Good?

 Where's the Good?

When hope is slammed
Beneath a broken hood
And hell moves in to harm
Where is the Good?

When darkness slithers into
Where Light once stood
And struggles to rise again
Where is the Good?

When I stumble all alone
Nothing going as it should
Around our broken lives
Where is the Good?

When what rules the world
Hides under a dark hood
In humans still enslaved
Where is the Good?

When Heart does not stand
In places where it could
While freedom slips away
Where is the Good?

Where is the Good?

   This poem is about my car being disabled, by those who target me and zoom in to try to force obedience and a covert abduction into enslavement. It is also a poetic cry for good people, around the globe, to stand up against the covert war and its many crimes. I feel that there is still a lot of good in the world. And that it will do what it can as soon as it can. But days can feel like eternity for people like me. . .and sometimes I just need to vent.



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 

and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Sunday, May 1, 2016

I Dedicate This Song to Genuinely Deceased Targeted Individuals

    I dedicate this song to deceased TIs. I feel envious of those who have truly reached an end to the suffering - those who are genuinely free and are in a far better place.  But I feel sad for those who are enslaved - those who are thought to be missing or dead, but aren't - those who have suffered a psychological/spiritual death - the worst kind of death there is. And then there's those of us who are being tortured for resisting the program and the mind control. How long can we hold on? What will happen if they get us all

 Humanity needs to be saved instead of enslaved

Vince Gill - Go Rest High On That Mountain


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, 
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Today is Meditation Day

    This morning I was reminded of how difficult it is for a heavily Targeted Individual to do anything that has a previously set date.
   Yesterday I experienced painful levels of torture of my brain through most of the day. As I did the 7am meditation this morning my brain was interfered with electronically. I had a slightly heavier than normal ring in my ears. My thoughts were being interrupted and odd thoughts were being plugged into my brain. I also had a strong feeling that I was being watched and scrutinized. Both of these situations blocked me. But I was able to take the prayer a bit deeper after they thought I had given up.
    Tears came to my eyes as I prayed for Light to spread through humanity and especially into government and military places. . .until enough Hearts are reached for them to publicly stand up and set themselves and the rest of humanity free. I prayed for all technologies that are used for mind control to be barred from criminal use or destroyed if they can not be secured. . .in order to save humanity. I prayed for the covert enslavement program to be exposed and stopped and the public allowed the understanding that is needed for full recovery...etc.
    My meditations/prayers will probably work best when I do them spontaneously and a lot more than one day per month, which I have been doing anyway. I hope that other people are able to do a lot more than I am being allowed to do on the first of the monthly meditations. Please join in.

Global Meditation/Prayer/Wish Request
www.heartbud.com/globalmeditation.pdf


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
And COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.