Saturday, August 12, 2017

Call to the Doves

I beg the Heart of officials, in EVERY level of our government, as well as abroad, to openly stand up for us and yourselves and America and the rest of humanity.

   Perpetration, that has tried to be "help" for Targeted Individuals on the web, has told us to focus only on the gang stalking part of the targeting. I have not done so, because I strongly feel that this merely sets up a scenario where those who control it all, through technological mind control, can merely set up whom ever they want to have caught, particularly the loved ones of us heavily Targeted Individuals...etc. (This scenario is also a danger for all levels of law enforcement officials.) I beg every level of government to do everything in your power to bring an end to the technological enslavement of humanity that has been torturing and abducting and deceitfully recruiting and using victims both inside and outside the government. I pray for us to not be blaming each other and to instead pull together and openly stand up against the real enemy - technological and pharmaceutical mind control, its enslavement of humanity and the silence that has enabled its success for too long.
   The sad truth is that the technological enslavement of humanity has inflicted many law enforcement places as well as loved ones of heavily Targeted Individuals. This is extremely dangerous for everyone. I hope it stops. 

   My situation has gotten too horribly confusing and threatening. There appear to be multiple set ups to hurt victims even more instead of helping us. Some of these set ups appear to involve law enforcement. But then there also seems to be set ups for me to blame law enforcement so that they will not help me or so that those who are under the influence of the sadistic mind control will seek revenge! I hope it does not succeed.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Fourth in Series of Technological Holocaust Drawings

   Rays of sun peaking through puffy clouds, in this mornings sky, inspired this fourth and final "Technological Holocaust drawing. It is called Technological Holocaust - Freedom
Sorry I was not able to crop it.

 


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, August 4, 2017

Please Set Humanity Free


   God, please set humanity free. Please stop all the covert wars, the enslavement of the mind and Heart of humanity and the torture of those of us who know....etc. Please deliver freedom, safety and peace to all, in ways that do not harm anyone. Please deliver awareness of what has been happening so that recovery can take place. God, please set humanity free.

May the Heart of humanity immediately stand up
and save itself from further destruction.




Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Attempt to Nuked Me Into An Abduction!

Around midnight last night I experienced a severe round of microwaving that aimed to force me to leave the parking lot I was in and run to a bathroom. Then I was hit with a strong blast of microwaves when I did not comply. I did eventually have to go to a gas station and barely had the strength to walk in. I felt like I had been drugged as well. My mouth suddenly got severely dry and my limbs extremely weak. Then there was an ambulance waiting outside for me, trying to direct me into it, as I walked out of the gas station. I think they may have thought I would collapse from the microwave blast…etc., and sent an ambulance to pick me up, which is a common covert abduction maneuver. (I feel that the hospitals are heavily involved with a few types of the abductions of targeted people.)
     I have experienced these sorts of abduction attempts many times, especially through the last six months of 2013, when covert "help" zoomed in full force. They'd repeatedly hit me hard with lasers or microwaves, and/or through disabling my car and then try to pick me up, pretending that it’s a covert rescue, but I have felt certain that the tortures are done by the same people who are using others to try to "rescue"/abduct me. I have stated, many times, that I feel it leads to complete enslavement and staged deaths…etc., and I do not understand why it is vamping up again. Please STOP! I do not want to be tortured into an abduction. I do not want to be enslaved. I do not want to end up with those whop are targeting me. Please stop.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, August 2, 2017

For Us

If there is anyone who is aware of the targeting against me or any other person, I beg you to let your Heart stand up with/for us. We need you here for us.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, July 31, 2017

The Psychiatric DSM and Microwave Targeting

  I have written this before, but I feel a need to reiterate;

I feel it is not a coincidence that the field of psychiatry created the DSM - the diagnostic manual for mental illness, in the 1950s - around the time when the enslavement of humanity appears to have been vamping into full swing. Even professionals in the field of psychiatry have noticed something wrong with many of the things that were being listed in and/or later added to the DSM, and had stood up against it. Among those who opposed it were Dr. Thomas Szasz and Dr. Paula Caplan.   I'm sure that there must be some legitimate things in the DSM. But was it actually created and/or added to, in order to falsely label symptoms of microwave targeting so that victims would be discredited, disbelieved and medicated instead of helped;  in order to destroy the Heart of humanity through falsely labeling and medicating things that are natural feelings and issues, which feeling and facing are what helps us to heal and grow;  in order to fabricate a reason to medicate as many people as possible, with substances that aid the success of technological mind control;  in order to instigate financial gain for pharmaceutical companies;  in order to discredit Targeted Individuals - people who are less controllable and have become aware of the targeting?
   I feel that all these questions can be accurately answered as, yes. This is something that I feel strongly about and feel certain that my perceptions are not wrong on. And I pray for the lethal microwave targeting and technological and pharmaceutical enslavement of humanity, and its destruction of the Heart of humanity, to be fully realized and stopped ASAP.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

My Videos

   I did not do a very good job with my new videos, which were primarily to give a quick overview of  the most obvious parts of the targeting since around 1974. I was not allowed to edit them before uploading them or to keep them private until I edited them.
   Its very disturbing that I have not been able to freely produce and edit my videos and other writings about the targeting. And its even more disturbing that some of my writings, and their dates of creation, have been altered by those who target me.
   Until I have the freedom to be more clear and concise, and have the right to freely edit out mistakes without being harassed or blocked from doing so or being too heavily targeted to do so effectively, I can only pray that you read or listen with your Hearts, look past bloops and do not make negative assumptions against me or anyone else...etc.
   Sometimes I think that I should just pull this blog and my videos down until I have the freedom to do a better job with them. But then I have the concern that this could serve those who target me if something bad were to happen to me and there was nothing left of my writings. Until I am safe and free, its seems better to leave them up, because in between their alterations and my own mistakes is information that I feel can help people to realize, and help stop, the targeting of humanity.

Play List with my recent videos on it.
Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Plight of Targeted Individuals

   Targeted Individuals (TIs) are in deep need of good, supportive places to turn to for help. Not having this has been excruciating, literally. We need good, decent government officials and our loved ones to be free to be able to be here for us in ways that are supportive - validating, understanding, compassionate, protective...etc. And I hope it happens soon.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Covert "Rescues" Into Enslavement


   I have said this many times before, but. . . I feel that the worst of the tortures have been to force me to leave my life - to leap into enslavement in order for the torture to stop...and to force me toward a false "mental illness" label, which would discredit my testimony and strip me of what little is left of my rights and freedom.
   I still feel that the covert "rescues" lead to complete enslavement and that Targeted Individuals have been vanishing - torn from their lives and sometimes not even a trace of their existence left behind through the past few decades. Some of the covert "rescue" attempts appear to be performed by good people, who are enslaved and/or unwittingly used in the foreground of the dark operation that target us all, and this is disturbing to say the least.  So, I want to again make it really clear that I do NOT want to be abducted and enslaved. So, please stop trying.



I still feel that the dark forces have control of the covert world and that it is safer for good people to fully and publicly stand up for us as well as themselves and the rest of humanity.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, July 24, 2017

Antony C. Sutton - Psychotronic Weapons and Behavior Modification

  Around the late 1980s Professor Antony C. Sutton said, “Psychotronics is the long range modification or manipulation of behavior by electronic, specifically radio means. In other words you use electromagnetic energy – radio wave transmissions to effect human behavior. . . You are merging radio engineering and parapsychology . . You can create a passive behavior. You can make people go to sleep. You can create narcotic effect. . . You can make people alert. You can make them misconstrue – misunderstand things. Each has a specific – very precise frequency. We know what these frequencies are. We know the behavior modification that can be brought about. . . You can induce medical effect – you can induce heart attacks, at a distance, with certain frequencies. . . We know you can modify behavior through beaming radio waves on specific frequencies at a distance. I think what they did in the 1970s was experimentation. I think what they are doing today is not experimentation. . . The West Germans issued their diplomats with protective devices about ten years ago. . . ”


Antony C. Sutton - Psychotronic Weapons and Behavior Modification

https://youtu.be/Uhlym82G_t4

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, July 8, 2017

Over Your Head?

 If your in "over your heads" use your Hearts.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Friday, July 7, 2017

A Potential Danger that Must Not Be Allowed to Happen

    I had exposed this before but erased it because I did not want to make good officials, who do good things, to look bad. But my heart tells me that genuine good officials would want to know the danger of set ups where even they could be used to hurt victims even more.
   Due to the wide spread mind control and enslavement of humanity there is a serious danger, if those who help to target and control victims are the ones who control the initial exposing of the targeting, because they could just set up anyone they want to look like a criminal part of the targeting. This could create even more hell for tortured individuals and loved ones of heavily Targeted Individuals. What a horrible scenario it would be if the targeting were exposed in ways that just hurt us more. This just can not be allowed to happen. We need the opposite - kindness, validation, understanding, protection from further harm, a chance to recover...etc. I think that those who target me know that it would hurt me immensely if, after years of my begging and waiting for help and protection for my loved ones and I, they set up the most innocent and tortured victims to look like the criminals. Last year I had actually gotten threats that they would do this if I wanted a "stand up" in my situation. And it has concerned me since. Thinking about this scenario proves the statements I made about how the little stuff can not be fixed, or dealt with, in the usual way, under the constraints of the BIG stuff - the technological mind control.

I beg good/uncontrolled officials, in ALL levels of our government, to openly stand up for themselves, each other, us torture victims, America and ultimately all of humanity so that victims can be helped without more pain being inflicted.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Stand With Love

God is Love. Satan is hate. God forgives. Satan punishes.
God is Honest. Satan is deceitful. God promotes Peace. Satan promotes wars.
God is clear and direct. Satan is confusing, covert and cryptic.

Please stand with Love/God.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.


   I have always viewed "satan" as just the dark forces in our world.
But I'm using biblical terminology to make my point easier here.

Monday, June 26, 2017

Calling All Hearts Again

 I recently updated this one page paper.
Please print it out and pass it to as many people as possible.


    Most people are aware that radio waves can be sent down to their homes or computers, from satellites, for the purpose of internet access. But most people are not aware that these technologies can be criminally used – that beams of radio waves (microwaves) can also be directed into human beings to disrupt brain and body functions in ways that can range from mild to lethal. Radio waves shot into the human brain can inflict mental numbness and confusion, unusual mood swings and mind control - brainwashings. Radio waves shot into other parts of the body can cause physical illnesses like fatigue, joint pain, lupus, cancers, lung inflictions, heart attacks, brain damage...etc. I understand how difficult it may be to believe that this is happening, but please give it the benefit if your doubt. What's happening is so outrageously inhumane that a natural response can be to slip into shocked denial, overwhelm, or blind disbelief, but this situation needs your awareness and attention. This is a crisis that is already hurting humanity in many ways. It is a technological holocaust that needs to be more fully realized and stopped as quickly as possible.
    There is documented scientific proof that experiments, on the effects of radio waves (microwaves), being shot into the human body, began around the early 1900s by scientists like Nicola Tesla. Around 1961 President John F. Kennedy exposed this crisis to media officials saying, “Today no war has been declared - and however fierce the struggle may be, it may never be declared in the traditional fashion. Our way of life is under attack... we are opposed, around the world, by a monolithic and ruthless conspiracy that relies primarily on covert means… There is no escaping either the gravity or the totality of its challenge to our survival and to our security - a challenge that confronts us in unaccustomed ways in every sphere of human activity." This is NOT A “COMSPIRACY THEORY.” It has been happening for decades. Most people just are not aware of it. Hints of it leaked into the mainstream media in the 1970s when part of the MKULTRA and Russia’s microwaving of the American Embassy were reported, but not much has been reported since then.
   The worst of the technological targeting is mind control, which is aided by certain types of pharmaceuticals that have been being heavily pushed upon humanity and were even reported to have been found in USA public drinking water supplies in 2008. Though the immediate effects of technological mind control may be virtually unnoticeable to most people, the long term effects could be devastating for all of humanity if it is not immediately stopped, especially that which is performed on children – humanity’s future. When we are not allowed to freely think and feel we cannot fully follow our own instincts and Hearts and our natural process of personal growth is impeded and this is too damaging to be allowed to continue any longer.
    The computerized infiltration of people’s minds may sound impossible to many, but it is a devastating reality to even some of them. Veteran Author, Jim Keith had stated that, "Brain-computer radio communication has long been considered impossible by the majority of people and has consequently been relegated to science-fiction, but the fact is that the technology had been developed into reality by at least the 1960s…”
    The technological mind control is a covert enslavement of humanity which must be stopped as quickly as possible. It has been being performed on unaware people in the secret shadows of a global covert war for decades now. The late Philip Coppens reported that "In April 1953, CIA Allen Dulles gave a lecture at Princeton University, detailing Soviet developments in the field of mind control. He stated they were out to control the mind of free men, both individually and collectively. . . Dulles proclaimed that the Cold War was moving into a new era of psychological warfare, which Dulles characterized as the battle for men's minds. "We might call it in its new form brain warfare.” Many blame only “the government,” but victims of technological mind control, and other forms of microwave targeting, include government personnel and media, as well as common citizens. The sadistic mind control programming appears to be pitting government and citizens, as well as family members, against each other and this cannot have a good result if it is allowed to continue. We should be standing up for each other, instead of fighting against each other, since we are all in this together. There are privately owned satellites “for internet purposes,” And there probably are other privately owned space and ground based technologies as well. The field of medicine, from psychiatry and dental to universities and hospitals appears to be heavily involved in the targeting and it is very possible that many of the physical and mental illnesses, which are inflicted with radio waves (microwaves) being shot into our bodies, could be for the purpose of financial gain through the sale of pharmaceuticals. . . some of which may also contain the compounds that aid technological mind control.
   Part of the sadistic technological targeting includes the torturing of heavily Targeted Individuals who are suffering indescribably. Within the covert war, unaware citizens and mind control victims have been being lured into, or targeted/tortured into, a sadistic covert program, which uses them to help technologically target or harass or recruit fellow citizens, sometimes under the guise of it being good or “help.” There appear to be false covert “rescues” of isolated and tortured Targeted Individuals, which lead to complete enslavement of those of us who are thought to be missing or dead. Please help spread the word on this. Public awareness can stop the recruiting process and deliver severe victims and their families the validation and understanding that is desperately needed.

   Criminal use of ground and space based technologies, which can emit and direct radio waves, is probably the most dangerous thing humanity has been face with. Never, in the history of humanity, has there been a more crucial time for the Heart of humanity to rise into a strong, PEACEFUL, public stand for Freedom. I beg government and media officials, in America, as well as around the globe, to let your Hearts unite and stand up for us.

   Please give this information the benefit of your doubt. Please copy and share this paper with as many people as possible. Gather loved ones and neighbors into supportive groups and stay calm and act peacefully. Avoid the sadistic covert program/secret society and follow your own Hearts above all else. Do what you can to protect yourself, especially your brain. Please help remedy the obstacle of radio wave blockers being illegal to obtain in some countries. Pray or wish for the full restoration of our Freedom and do all that you can to help stop criminal use of radio wave technologies.

ATTENTION GOVERNMENT OFFICIALS; There may be modes of technological “protection” that have been a sly enslavement and filters, which bypass the low frequencies used for mind control, built into radio wave detect and blocking technologies. I hope this is investigated.

A PDF of this to print and pass it to as many people as possible;

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Bits of Validation

 When I run across bits of validation from sub media forums that are standing up for us Targeted Individuals, (TIs) I feel grateful. I deeply appreciate their courage. And I'd do more to thank them in comments on their articles, but I have been being blocked from them.
   I have concerns too though, because most of the exposure in the sub media seems to focus primarily on the "gang stalking" and is laced with blame against our families and/or the government, which is understandable, since these are the places we have been being programed to blame. And their silence...etc., makes them look guilty. Its easy to blame them when we are not aware of the extent of the technological and pharmaceutical mind control which can seriously influence not only our loved ones, but also community members in all arenas.
    The technological mind control is a critically important component in the sadistic targeting, because it is used on our loved ones and community members, in order to keep us isolated and disbelieved and unhelped and sometimes even completely forgotten or framed fro crimes...etc. Much of humanity appears to already be enslaved. Most of the covert harassment  appears to be done by mind control victims who are unaware of being used.  Some of them appear to have been recruited or tortured into the covert program under the guise of it being good and "helpful." This level of the stalkers are used to try to abduct and enslave us under the guise of it being a covert "rescue." Some appear to be torture victims who have been recruited, by their own abusers, in order to seek revenge on those whom they are convinced have been torturing them, in a covert war for freedom that merely adds to the horrible destruction of it. In one way or another, most of them are victims too. But some are actual criminals who do things like tamper with brakes on vehicles or shoot things into tires or spray something on our windshield that prevents us from seeing through it when it rains or drug and rape us, or steal from us or destroy our property, or put parasites in our food or on our clothes in public...etc.
   We TIs also experience the mind control in ways that sabotage relationships and block our hearts and sabotage us getting the proper kinds of help, can make us appear "mentally ill," or make us forget important pieces of evidence, or make it look like we are just catastrophizing things that are really even worse then we can express...etc. The tortures and mind control can practically drop us to our knees in physical and/or emotional agony one day and then make us look happy and OK - like nothing is really happening to us the next day.  The result can be devastating and like being trapped in a desolate public prison.
    Aside from the covert harassment (gang stalking), and the parasite targeting and chemical/bacteria targeting, and the technological mind control, we also experience technological tortures to various parts of our bodies, especially in our head and breasts and pubic area. We are experiencing horrible, holocaustal levels of physical and psychological torture, while being surrounded by people who are not even free to follow their own minds and Hearts and realize or believe or care about what is happening to us. This is more excruciating then words can express, especially when we are not aware of the mind control that uses people to either prevent or withhold various types of help or limit and control the amounts of financial help we get once we are shoved into destitution. We are in desperate need of compassion, validation, understanding, protection from further harm...etc.

   The darkest core of the sadistic targeting is criminal use of radio wave technologies, which has been performing various types of mind control and torture upon much of humanity and it must be quickly stopped. Please help to stop it from continuing - Please help set humanity free.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, June 19, 2017

Chemotherapy Concern

   Some forms of Chemotherapy may be good for some types of natural illnesses. I really do not know much about it. However, I feel that there is a type of chemotherapy that can be extremely damaging to our Spirits and cause a sort of inner death, which greatly aids technological mind control.
   My concern started in 2006 when a doctor told me I was nearly dead and needed chemotherapy. At that time, I'd had a dream which showed my illness being caused by dark energy being shot at me and had felt that the chemo would be even more damaging to me, so I refused treatment. I now feel that the "dark energy" was the microwaves/radio wave targeting and that, at that time, it was being done in ways that were intended to force me into medical treatment, including chemotherapy. I am so glad I didn't let them do that to me. And I hope other people listen to their instincts above all else. Doctors do not always know what is best for us. In this holocaustal targeting they are sometimes even used to hurt us. . .and I hope it is all stopped soon.

   I feel that there are many different types of pharmaceuticals, which aid the technological mind control, and have been being pushed onto people who are not really ill, but are experiencing microwave/radio wave targeting.



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets
hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a
STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Deprivation of Nurturing Nourishment?

  In the early 1980s I had two babies whom I had wanted to breast feed. But I was forced to give them formula due to experiencing excruciating pain when I tried to nurse them. This happened with both of my children. Now that I am aware of the sadistic targeting I feel that the pain was technologically inflicted, in order to deprive my children of the mother-child bonding that breast feeding can provide and/or to force me to give them formula instead of the natural milk that would have been better for them.
   This leads me to wonder about baby formula. Since certain types of pharmaceuticals aid technological mind control, and have even been found in public drinking water, is it possible that baby formula could contain traces of at least one of them? I hope someone investigates to find out.
  No matter what may or may not be in baby formula, surely a mother's natural milk is what is best for children. I'd like to urge parents to breast feel their children, no matter how inconvenient it may be, so that the babies can receive the healthiest food and the nurturing bond that nursing can provide. I wish I could have done this. Not being able to was hard for me, because it felt important to me, even back then – before I was aware of the targeting.

   Please help our children - humanity's future, to be free of pharmaceutical and technological mind control so they can grow into all that they were born to be. And please do everything in your power to stop criminal use of ground and space based technologies that have been being used to target people, including defenseless mothers and babies.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Please Help Stop Technological Mind Control from Continuing to Destroy Humanity

  My writings have contained a heavy focus on the technological and pharmaceutical mind control because I feel that it is literally the worst thing that has ever happened to humanity. The infliction of technological and pharmaceutical mind control prevents the natural process of personal growth and can block or interfere with our Hearts and our ability to listen to our natural instincts....etc.
   In my dreams, through the past decade or so, my children are depicted as being young children (under ten years old) even in current circumstances. And I strongly feel that this is because their natural process of inner growth stopped when the technological mind control vamped up on them around the late 1980s. This leaves me deeply concerned for them as well as the rest of humanity.
   Even if you do not believe in dreams, or my interpretation of this scenario, I beg you to listen to your own common sense, which can tell you that ANYTHING, which interferes with our natural process of thinking and feeling also interferes with our natural process of personal growth. And our natural process of personal growth is needed, in order for us follow our own Hearts and grow into all that we were born to be so that we can do our part in making our world a better, safer, healthier and more loving place to live. Humanity needs to be set free and our children - our future need to be protected from further harm.
   Technological mind control can interfere with, or even completely block our most valuable tool - our Hearts. Just look around the world and see its effects through the past few decades.
   Technological mind control can interfere with, or even completely block natural instincts, which are needed by every human being, especially those who work in professions like law enforcement - from local through federal. Please THINK about this and the ramifications of dulled or blocked instincts in mind control victims of all kinds. I beg all levels of law enforcement to openly stand up against technological and pharmaceutical mind control for them selves as well as us.
   The list of harm that technological mind control has been inflicting upon humanity could go on and on and on. It is just too horribly wrong and intrusive and damaging and it has to be stopped ASAP. Humanity needs to be free to think and feel and grow...etc.

   Please help set humanity free from technological mind control and the pharmaceuticals and torturous technological targetings that aid its process, as quickly as possible. Please do everything in your power to help stop criminal use of all space and ground based technologies which can emit radio waves. . .as quickly as possible.



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, June 10, 2017

An Optomistic Prayer

   I have delivered an idealistic prayer request to not only regain Freedom for us all, but also for me be able to fully recover from what has been done to me and then live at least 40, safe, healthy, peaceful...etc, years in this lifetime, before I go to my REAL Home - the Home of pure genuine Love. I have lot of living to make up for and I am sure that many other people do too. I hope we all get that chance to freely live in a world that does not interfere with anybody's natural thoughts, feelings and processes of personal growth...etc.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, June 5, 2017

For Forgiveness to Blossom


   There are many things that I have been feeling confused about or hurt by and I hope for this hell to end with freedom being regained and direct/overt, positive resolution, in all places where it is possible, so that forgiveness can blossom.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Vision of Love


    Long ago, I had a vision, which showed the Heart of humanity standing up and saving itself from further destruction. So, I pray for God to send us the Love that will save us, save America and save the rest of humanity - the Love that will restore our Freedom and safety - the Love that will work through every Heart that allows it.

You can be a Dove. All its takes is Love.

P.S. I do not want to offend or alienate any level of any agency that could possibly help this hell to end and our freedom to be genuinely restored. I wish that the good/uncontrolled Hearts, in every level of government, would pull together and stand up for us and America and humanity. I wish.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

No Matter What They Say



My heart keeps assuring me that GENUINE help will empathize and be here for us, in every way it can, no matter what we say or do or write.

I'm trying to keep my hope alive.



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

My Spiritual View

   I feel, with every fiber of my heart and soul, that "God is Love" and that the only way to God is through our Hearts. And this is why it is so critically important that the technological and pharmaceutical targeting, which has been blocking the Heart of humanity, be stopped as quickly as possible. Please help save the Heart of Humanity from further destruction.



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, June 3, 2017

From Vengeance to Freedom

   In a free world we are able to stand up for what we feel is right, and stand up to publicly expose what is wrong, so that things can get better. In an enslaved world, where sadistic technological mind control has been inflicted, the opposite can happen and this is too unfortunate.
   My experiences have shown me that the technological mind control programming, that has been being used to enslave humanity, pushes severe victims, or covertly uses unaware victims, to seek vengeance against grievances instead of doing the functional listening and looking at and altering behaviors...etc. This creates a horrible situation for people in my type of situation. There are many times when the more I felt and said or wrote about the wrongs/crimes that have been being committed against me as well as many others, the worse things got for me. They'd retaliate instead of caring and striving to make things better. And this has appeared to happen in almost every arena that I have been associated with.
   Clearly we are not living in a free world. It appears that most of humanity has already been enslaved and is influenced by a horribly dysfunctional, often cruel, technological mind control programming. This is a critical holocaustal situation, not only for people like myself who are being heavily targeted/tortured, but also for those who are enslaved by, or used in, the sadistic covert program. But the answer is not to cower in fear as they seek revenge, although I have been doing my share of this, even recently. Its a scary situation I am in! But my heart's Wisdom says that the primary answer is to let our Hearts. . .

Openly stand up for Freedom for all
until it has been completely regained.

Please stand up for Freedom, instead of seeking revenge against me.
Please stop the covert wars and peacefully stand up for Freedom.
P.S. We need more people peacefully and publicly standing up for Freedom from technological mind control...etc.,, especially media and government officials of all levels, in order to stop it from continuing and growing. . .and to start restoring the Heart of humanity.
 
   Its still OK to embrace and share our feelings. It will just
be a lot easier to do when our Freedom has been regained.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Vision of Love

  Long ago, I had a vision, which showed the Heart of humanity standing up and saving itself from further destruction. So, I pray for God to send us the Love that will save us, save America and save the rest of humanity - the Love that will restore our Freedom and safety - the Love that will work through every Heart that allows it.

You can be a Dove
All its takes is Love.




Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Calling All Hearts Again

   Please print and pass this paper to as many people as possible as quickly as possible. It is a shortened version of the one a did a few years ago;



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way 
Through bullets hidden in microwaves, 

And COURAGE, God...to make a STAND 

That saves our lives and FREEs our land.

My Goal is Freedom and Recovery of the Heart of Humanity

   I have been doing my best, under extremely difficult conditions, to expose the covert targeting and enslavement of humanity, especially the technological mind control, which appears to be delivered through things like satellites that can shoot disruptive and/or brainwashing radio waves into the brains of people as easily as it can shoot them down for internet access, and is aided by certain types of pharmaceuticals, which have been being pushed onto masses of unwitting people. I strongly feel that the technological and pharmaceutical control of humanity is a critical holocaustal situation that must be remedied as quickly as possible, because it has been destroying the Heart of humanity and appears to be growing dangerously fast through the past few decades
   I feel that our precious Freedom must be quickly regained, and understanding of what has been happening delivered to all, so that recovery/healing can begin.
   Heavily Targeted Individuals, (like myself) have been being hurt/tortured in ways that are grossly inhumane, to say the least. We, including those who are not aware of being targeted, need validation, understanding, compassionate help and protection from further harm (of all kinds) including from technological tortures, technological mind control, covert harassment, false mental illness labels, parasite and chemical targeting and the sabotaging of our work, homes, relationships, health and lives...etc.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Sabotaged Medicine

    I recently tried to make garlic tincture to aid with the parasite and bacteria parts of the targeting and the garlic turned bright green, like it has when I cooked with it. But this garlic was merely minced and put into vinegar.
   Decades ago I used to make garlic tincture and it never turned green. I do not know if it is something being done to the garlic before I buy it or if it is being microwaved as I aim to use it. But either way, my modes of medicine have been being sabotaged.
   Many years ago, before I was aware of being targeted, I suddenly started getting excruciating head aches after eating garlic and was baffled by it. I now think I was being technologically tortured for eating something that prevents parts of the targeting from succeeding. Similar things have happened when I aimed to do other types of medicines...making me think that my body was having an adverse reaction to them. This was so severe that it landed me in the emergency room one time.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, May 8, 2017

Third Technological Holocaust Drawing

    I finally put the finishing touches on the third drawing I started in February. It is called "Confusion." This picture of the drawing is a bit blurry, but is the best I can do right now.

Technological Holocaust - Confusion by Sharon Rose Poet


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

Weather Modification?

  Whenever I see unusual weather patterns, like the ones that are now happening and causing record levels of flooding, I can not help but wonder if it is being instigated with criminal use of Weather Modification Technologies and/or laser weapons that can break things like eddies and dams. I hope that further devastation can be prevented by positive use of such technologies and the prevention of criminal use. I hope that stalled storm systems can be pushed out to sea instead of dumping too much water in the Northeast in the next week...etc. And God help places like Missouri and Arkansas! I feel for those who have lost homes and hope they are getting compassionate and uncomplicated help.



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, May 1, 2017

Its never going to be "too late"

Its never going to be "too late"
For Love to save the human race.
And Love works through anyone
Who has the Heart get it done.



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Cryptic Dreams

Cryptic dreams from years gone by
Build a shield as my heart cries
And ravens move in to construct
Roads that have run out of luck.
Oh dear God let them be safe.
Doves can save the human race.
And Hawks that soar above it all,
Oh let them break the darkest walls
So Eagle's Heart can be set free
For all of them and you and me.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, April 29, 2017

Voice of a Targeted Individual

   They took most of; my dearest loved ones; my home and gardens; my dreams; my privacy; my peaceful sanctuarys; my safety; my trust; my freedom to love and think and live and feel in ways that are natural to me, without being tortured; my ability to pray and wait for answers without interference; my work and financial security...etc. And they still want my voice!




Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, April 20, 2017

Web Forums With Changable Posts Feel Unsafe

   A few years ago, when facebook changed to the format of posts being alterable/editable I pulled away from that forum out of concern that my posts could be altered by those who target me and had already infiltrated those accounts more than once. I had also experienced the alterations of posts that I had commented on in a poetry forum where posts were editable. The alterations of either our writings or those that we comment on can create really bad situations for Targeted Individuals.
   This concern is raised again lately as I go through a round of making comments on a few Targeted Individual youtube videos, because those are now changeable as well. I hope what I write remains the way I wrote it, especially since I am now too broke to even do print outs of my writings. And I hope that things I have commented on remain as they were when I made the comment.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

New Page for Targeted Individual Videos

   In my recent round of looking for Targeted Individual videos I have found that there are a lot of new ones on the web in the past couple years. But, sadly, many of the older ones appear to have vanished. I, of course, can relate to a lot of what is in them and I can recognize some of the typical stages of realization. But, to those who are not aware of what is happening to us they can be confusing. So, please watch them with your Heart.

  Targeted Individual videos are desperate cries
for understanding, care and the right kinds of help

   We desperately grope for who and why and how where there are too few answers. Is it this one or that one or coworkers or community members or my family or the government...etc.? But the manipulations and misinformation and interference with our brains makes it hard to be objective and often impossible to present ourselves as well as we could if we were not being targeted. When we look through our justifiable anger, from the prison of hell that our abusers have us trapped in, they all appear responsible, because some of them are involved either through participation or through an inability to protect us or through a baffling, careless, blind disbelief, which even tends to assume "mental illness" instead of giving us the benefit of doubt. If we are able to reach the point of realizing the horrible technological and pharmaceutical mind control's enslavement of humanity, and are able to look at the bigger picture, we can see that they are all victims too. But this is often too difficult to do while being tortured and feeling scared and desperate for help, especially in the initial stages of realizing that we are experiencing sadistic targeting and often being told that our own government...etc., is torturing and harassing us. Please excuse us and try to understand and care instead of judging us. God help us all.


 New Page for Targeted Individual Videos

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves,
and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Monday, April 17, 2017

Cover Up of Technological Targeting?

Crippled Grope for Help
   It appears that those of us who are aware of, and have been exposing, the technological parts of the sadistic targeting may be in danger of being inflicted with other things that our symptoms can be blamed on - things like parasites or tumors or other ailments that appear to be natural but are also inflicted by those who target us. (They can not call us ALL "mentally ill" so I guess they need other avenues to cover up the technological targeting, especially that which is inflicted through space based technologies.) For example; a victim who "complains" about being lasered in the pubic area may end up with a parasite infliction that it can be blamed on. (This happened to me.) But the victim knows, because there is a very noticeable difference between the different types of inflictions. I also feel that things like morgellons has been being inflicted upon heavily "Targeted Individuals" so that the technological tortures can be blamed on the parasites...etc.
   Of course, "life happens" - people do get ill from natural causes...etc., (and it appears that humanity has been being experiencing parasite targeting on a massive scale) but the technological targetings are also happening. The inflictions to cover up the technological part of the targeting should not stop us from standing up against it, it just needs to also be exposed so they can not get away with it.

   They have periodically inflicted me with various types of parasites, including literally shooting ticks into my car last summer. Puppets walking or standing close behind me and putting something in my hood or on the back of my head has happened a lot, including just recently! ("Got you," they said after they recently did it!) I have actually caught them doing these things and some of them are hard to get rid of! There is a lot more but that is not what this post is for.
   They have been threatening to inflict me with various types of cancers and disabilities, in order to stop me from writing and, if they do, this can also be used to cover up the technological targeting, although that is what would be used to inflict the disability.
   They can only get away with technologically inflicting an illness, in order to hide other technological inflictions, if too many people, especially professionals who could help us) are not aware of the capabilities, and criminal use of radio wave technologies, especially space based laser weapons and microwave weapons, psychotronic weapons, RMN, DEWs...or whatever else they are now being called, in order to hide past reports of their criminal use. Please help spread awareness.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Saturday, April 15, 2017

A Stand for the Silent Targeted Individuals

  My fight to expose the sadistic targeting has always been for those of us who are being heavily targeted and, as I realized more of the scope of it - the mind control, for those who have been crippled by blind disbelief and manipulations that prevent them from realizing and helping in ways that have are needed. My heart aches for all of us, especially my estranged family members and other loved ones.
   There are several people who have been being as heavily targeted as me, for over a decade now, and the pain I feel for them is sometimes unbearable, because I know too well the indescribably suffering they have been being inflicted with. I do not know if I should list their names - if this would be good or bad for them. Its hard to know how to handle this situation. So I will not list the full names here.
   Two people who have been on the top of my list of worries are Billy and Mary who appear to have started being targeted around the time when things vamped up on me in the early 1990s.
   I call Billy, "Billy the Kid," because he used to tell me stories about how he and his military and/or law enforcement buddies used to go out to a remote place to target practice, sometimes literally blowing up old vehicles. I remember laughing with him as he told me that it was a great way to release pent up anger. After that I held a picture of him - a spiritual warrior with guns strapped to his sides, which was a comical contrast to his profession as a calm healer. I got a kick out of his style. I Love Billy. I always have. Not in a relationship type of way - he was like a brother to me. He had a good Heart and held a strong focus on spiritual and personal growth. He was a person whom I had always known I could turn to if times got tough. But as the targeting vamped up on me it hit him too, perhaps because he would have been here for me if I had turned to him.
  A couple of years ago I visited him. His hugs/care has helped to carry me through and his sharing of his difficult experiences helped me to feel less alone in this hell that too many of us have been being inflicted with. But I have hurt for him a lot. His experiences, which I feel were part of the sadistic targeting, included the loss of his license to practice medicine, a serious skiing "accident," and a head on collision with a police cruiser. I have felt that, the vehicle "accident" was not a real accident and that both Billy and the police officer were victims of the sadistic targeting.
   I do not know what has happened to Billy the Kid, at this point. I do not know if he has vanished or been enslaved, or been killed or is still hanging in there and struggling to survive it. I hope he is still surviving it. At this point I do not know if my interactions with him, and my previously sharing things about him being targeted, had helped or made things more difficult for him, but I hope it has helped.
    Mary was a special person in my life. Like, Billy, we were not supper close, but there was a mutual Love and respect. I love Mary as if she were my sister. Our souls strolled side by side in our process of personal and spiritual growth, especially in our yoga class and I think that those types of bonds can not be broken, because we can sometimes even feel each other's pain. Mary's experiences were very similar to mine - her work, which she did with deep levels of compassion for others, was sabotaged. And her beautiful Heart targeted. Her misery and fear have haunted me since I spoke to her in 2006. I do not know what has happened to her either, at this point. In 2015 I had a vision of her crying and crying and there was nothing I could do to help her. I felt her pain and have carried it with me. I keep praying that she is OK, but know that none of us can be OK in this hell we have been being surrounded by and hurt by.

This list could go on, but I need to stop here. 
God help us all to regain our freedom and have a chance to recover.




Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Please Do Not Feel Misplaced Guilt

  Misplaced Guilt is Too Heavy of a Load

    I have carried a lot of guilt, which I've been trying to let go of. But I still feel it. Sometimes I look back and think about the various types of destruction of an uncountable numbers of lives through the past few decades, especially that of people whom I love. Over and over again I have beat myself up for not realizing the targeting sooner. There is so much I could have done for all of us if I had known before they finished shoving me into destitution and before they finished isolating me. My heart grieves for the losses. The grief would be healthy if I had the freedom and privacy to fully feel and release it. But most of the guilt is misplaced and is a heavy load on my shoulders.
   Now that I do realize more of the sadistic targeting, I often do not know how to handle it and often feel like things I do or write or say are the wrong things. Sometimes I go through periods where I can not help but to just say whatever pops into my mind. I feel that this is due to the targeting of my brain, but do not know if it is being done with a drug or with technological interference. But I openly say things that I later feel like I should not have and then later feel guilty about it. And the list could go on.
   The deeper, wiser parts of myself, keep trying to console me; I was being too heavily targeted to realize things sooner; There is no way that I could know all the right ways to handle this baffling situation; I have no control over the intrusive targeting of my brain and life and they can read my mind anyway, so there are no secrets; And I have fought to expose the targeting for all of us, while often being tortured and threatened for doing so - I have been doing what I can under extremely difficult circumstances. But I still feel bad. And I do not want others to feel this way.
   Sometimes, as I think of things I've said or done, and as I write about what has been happening to me, I feel concerned about how other people may feel if or when they are allowed to feel anything. So. . .

Dear family and loved ones, especially my daughters,
    I know that you have not believed me and that some of you even go so far as to blame me and/or take part in helping to target me through pushing for the "mental illness" label or depriving me of the kind of help I need most. This has probably made things less difficult for you and I actually find some comfort in knowing this, although I have felt hurt as well. I hope that, if you ever reach a point where your hearts can reach beyond the brainwashings, and realize the Truths about the sadistic targeting against me, (and you as well) I hope you do not blame yourselves, because it is not your fault. I know that there were times when I blamed you and I feel horribly sorry for that. None of this is your fault. You are victims too, just in a different way. I am so sorry that I could not protect you from it. I love you always. . .no matter what.

Dear Government Officials of all levels,
   I can not even imagine the struggles that you have been up against, especially for those of you who may be trying to figure out how to deal with this unusual crisis, which surely none have had much training with. So many people blame you that it must be difficult to deal with that part as well. I guess because you are the authorities we tend to assume that you know everything and have the power to immediately stop all crimes...etc. I am deeply sorry that I have sometimes blamed you for not being here for us in the ways that I feel are desperately needed. I am sorry that I had even barged into an FBI office, in 2012, and angrily said, "You have a responsibility to the citizens of this country..."  Since then I have felt/realized that many of you have been victims too and that you must have your own unique batches of struggles with this mess.
   The deeper wiser parts of me are now assuring me that those of you who want to do more to help us will as soon as you can and may be doing more than I realize. It is hard to feel reassured when my brain is being too heavily targeted. It is hard for my desperation to wait, especially when I am being heavily hit. And its hard to sense that some of you have been used in the targeting and that some of you are victims of the mind control too. But it is easier when my heart feels that the vast majority of you are good decent people who are surely doing all that you can. . .although you may never do what I want or need.
   I imagine that, as some of you start realizing the scope of this situation, it may be difficult to look at the trail of destruction of innocent and harmless lives, and the sly, deceptive enslavement of uncountable numbers of people, and wonder what you could have done differently if anything...etc. I hope you do not blame yourselves. I hope you do not let that guilt settle onto your shoulders, especially since those of us who are being heavily targeted have been unable to do proper or good reports due to the targeting vamping up when we try to (sometimes even when we just think to) get help. I have been doing by best to focus on the potential good, instead of the possible bad, no matter what I have been told, in every level of our government, because it keeps my hope alive and you are the ones who can save America and us and the rest of humanity. . .and how can you do that if you are being blamed, or are feeling misplaced guilt, for destroying it? Its not your fault. You have been victims too. I am so glad you are there and I can't bear the thought of your not being. May we all completely regain our freedom as quickly as possible.


Dear America,
   It is sad that so many blame you for the sadistic targeting of humanity, including that of your own citizens. To those of us who are being heavily targeted, your communities can feel like holocaustal torture chambers. But it is not your fault. You have been being targeted too. You do not deserve the blame. The enslavement and sadistic targeting of many of your citizens is not your fault. You are not the only country that this has been happening to - all of humanity has been being targeted, especially those places, like America, that stood so strong for Freedom. Please peacefully stand up and set yourself free.

Dear Humanity
 
  It is a horribly sad situation where so much of you appears to have been being destroyed by the technological and pharmaceutical targeting, which prevents your natural process of personal growth - the very thing that life on Earth is for. Consequently, your Heart has been wounded. But its not your fault. You are not to blame. And you can recover.
   I feel, in the deepest parts of my heart and soul, that a Light is shining for us to regain the precious Freedom that has been being so ruthlessly and deceitfully torn away. It is reaching into the Hearts, all around the globe, who can restore our freedom. Please let it in. God's hands work through our Hearts and we must do our part. Lets do it. Please let your Heart stand up and save itself from further destruction.


   Sadly, those who are apt to feel guilt are often the ones who should not take it on. . .and those who are responsible for the damage that has been being inflicted upon people are apt to not feel any guilt at all. The most damaging of all guilt is misplaced guilt and I hope it keeps being shrugged off instead of eating away at the strength of those whom humanity needs to stand strong and tall.



Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Targeted Individual Videos

     I recently went through another round of looking at a few videos, which were made by other Targeted individuals (TIs) and its been like a knife in my heart. My own pain is triggered as I hear about some of the same things I've experienced. . .and it hurts to know how real this is - how many people are suffering through ongoing intentional inflictions of physical and psychological pain and how crippled we often are in the process of exposing or reporting it.
   Different Targeted Individuals experience different types of targetings, but the basic technological inflictions (especially mind control) and the covert harassment - gang stalking is all very similar. The darkest core of it appears to be some sort of sadistic/satanic occult which manipulates, brainwashes or enslaves and uses our loved ones and other people against us. And no matter who is doing it, or what we think it may be for, none of us deserve to be hurt. 
   Our  stories are heart wrenching when we are allowed to fully tell them and share our feelings, but this has not been being allowed to much of a degree, when it is at all. So, I want to beg all who watch our videos to let your Hearts look past anything that seems off color, give us the benefit of your doubt and feel the gravity of our situation, because we are hurting indescribably through years, and sometimes even decades, of grossly inhumane, sadistic, covert tortures and harassment
   The targeting tends to vamp up (especially the technological interference with our brains) when we aim to do things like reports, blogs, websites and videos, because those who target us do not want these holocaustal crimes exposed, and the result can be confusing to those who do not know what is happening to us.  But most Targeted Individual videos, which I have seen, expose many Truths about the sadistic covert targeting, especially the "gang stalking" - covert harassment part, which is the heaviest focus for most of them, although the technological parts, especially the mind control, are the worst of it all.
    Many of our videos reflect the numb void of feelings that pharmaceutical and/or technological mind control targeting can inflict, but if you look with your Hearts you will see our confusion, fear and the excruciating pain that is tearing us up on the inside. Many of us are hurting indescribably and we need our fellow human beings to realize the Truth - that most of us (if not all) are not "mentally ill" and are being hurt in ways that no human being should have to endure, especially without validation, understanding and compassionate help from fellow human beings.
    Technological  mind control inflictions are evident in many of our videos, although most TIs seem either oblivious to this part of the targeting or are heeding the warnings (or threats?) of being institutionalized if we say anything about it. Some videos include outbursts of extreme anger and profanity, which are often mind control inflictions at strategic times, although we certainly have just cause to feel our own anger as well. (Who was it that said, "Underlying all anger is pain?" Its true and fear is also covered by anger, especially when we are being tortured for feeling it.) Some videos reflect strong lecturing about things that we are convinced will finally end the unbearable hell we are experiencing, but our ideas are not always accurate and not always our own.
   Some videos reflect the religion part of the targeting, which tries to convince us that turning to the bible and becoming a better person can make it all end, although personal growth can not happen under torturous manipulations. . .and those who are being heavily targeted appear to be people who already had big Hearts and its the targeting that has been hurting and blocking us. (I  believe that it is very important to have Faith in the Highest Power, especially under these conditions, and that God/Light/Love works through people's Hearts whether they believe in it or not. However, both the technological and pharmaceutical targeting can block that vital part of us and prevents our own natural process of personal and spiritual growth.)
   Some videos reflect strong advise giving that comes from a yearn to want to help ourselves and others and sometimes from being told that we are the "chosen ones" who must save the world. (Too much is placed upon our shoulders and we can not accomplish it effectively while being targeted. We need other people's Hearts to stand up for us. I feel that the world will be saved by those who find the Heart to stand up with us.)
   Some videos reflect the confusion of misinformation, which is either deliberately fed to us by those who target us or is all that we can find on the web's limited exposure of this crisis. Some videos show hints of the fear and pain that we feel as we are told that all of the technological torture and harassment is being done by our own family members and/or our own government, although some people from these arenas are merely victims who are being used by the ones who are fully responsible.
   Some videos may be done by people who have been diagnosed/labeled/stigmatized with a "mental illness," the symptoms of which I feel are most often technological inflictions of our brains, in order to get us diagnosed and labeled and medicated so that we will be more controllable and so that people will not believe what is really happening to us. (I have fought hard to avoid them doing this to me, because the push has been ridiculously strong.) I feel that the vast majority of TIs are NOT "mentally ill" and are being tormented and/or tortured in ways that no human being should have to endure for any length of time.
   Many videos have probably been probably been removed from the web due to Targeted Individuals being threatened into silence, abducted or murdered. (Sadly, some Targeted Individuals may get completely taken over and become tools/puppets for those who target us.) Unfortunately, some videos are done by perpetration puppets (perps) who are just pretending to be heavily Targeted Individuals and appear to be either to make all TIs look crazy or to befriend real TIs in efforts to inflict more pain. But I feel that most of those who do these videos are victims who have been completely enslaved and are merely being used by the darkest perpetrators. The plight of completely enslaved mind control victims, who are used in the foreground of the covert targeting, seems worse than ours in some ways. Its horribly sad for them too, particularly for the ones who were tortured/forced/threatened into enslavement or compliance. My gut feeling is that not many people make a FREE CHOICE to do things that hurt us and that most of those who do tend to hide behind the scenes.

     I do not personally know any of the TIs in the videos I've gathered on the link below, except for myself. I have not even watched every minute of all of them. They are just a few examples. I tried to pick ones that either use real names, share personal experiences and do not too heavily leap into profanity, misplaced blame...etc. There are many others on the web that you can look up, but understand that, around the year 2012, many of us were warned/threatened into not using the "Targeted Individual" term so also check under things like "mind control victim" and "gangstalking victim" or "gang stalking victim." But my gut feeling is that most heavily Targeted Individuals are not on the web - like the ones that I knew personally who seemed too scared and ashamed of what has happened to them. And their feelings are justified, because some of us blame ourselves or have been threatened into not publicly saying anything and into not seeking help. Some just cannot handle anymore, while being slowly and inconspicuously destroyed. I hurt for them as well as myself. My stand has been for all of us. I'm sorry I've not been able to do a very good job with it, although this is not my fault.

   Please let your Heart reach past the manipulations that many of us Targeted Individuals have been surrounded by and/or filled with, and believe us - believe that we are being hurt in ways that should not be happening and should not be allowed to continue. The most painful part of the targeting is often the isolation and deprivation of being believed, validated, understood, supported, protected and loved in ways that are desperately needed. (I have been mostly isolated and homeless since around the year 2006, when I started realizing part of the targeting, and severely isolated since the fall of 2011 when things got even worse. I am being tortured for writing this - sudden infictions of physical pain in my neck and shoulders as well as puppets jabbering behind me.)

   I am still praying for decent media and government officials, in America and around the globe, to honestly stand up and publicly validate all aspects of the targeting - to let their Hearts stand up for us and save humanity. . .and I have faith that they will as quickly as they can. God help us all


 Link to a Few Targeted Individual Videos

P.S. Since I saw some of the lipsinking videos, of last year's presidential debates, and have experienced multitudes of technological interference I am concerned that our words, in videos may be able to be altered. I hope this does not happen, but there needs to be an awareness of its possibility.
   I no longer try to connect with other TIs, except for little spurts of trying to offer validation to them, because I have been too heavily swarmed by the ones who are perpetration puppets and I have often been blocked from functional correspondence with genuine Targeted Individuals. Two that I have been obvious blocked from were Dr. John Hall in 2011 and also Rachael Orbin. Racheal appears to have been vanished - her youtube account has vanished and her first video is now being displayed by someone else. I do not know if that video is still the way it was. Her other video, which exposed some very important things about what both she and I have been experiencing now appears to have been erased completely. Has she been abducted?
   I had started sharing TI videos in 2012 but was being hit too hard and got too confused about who was or was not a perpetration puppet...etc. The people, whom I personally know to be heavily targeted, the way I am, are not on the web, and its hard to share things from people whom I do not know. But I have felt bad about not sharing more from other Targeted Individuals and now feel that I can not judge any of the videos, especially since I am being too heavily targeted, and am too overwhelmed with it all, to make accurate assessments. I hope this post helps to support all types of Targeted Individuals.

Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Tuesday, April 11, 2017

The Heart Bud Blog


I almost forgot about this blog








Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Disabled People Enslaved and Used

   Over and over again I have found my self feeling shocked by how many mentally disabled and physically deformed people are complete mind control victims. They have been bringing groups of them to places I frequent. It is all so sad that I just can not handle it well. How much of the condition of these people is caused by technological targeting? I feel that some of it surely is. . .and probably more than any of us would feel comfortable with realizing, but it must be realized and stopped.
   Their counselors or respite providers appear to be puppets as well. Just this morning one of them came next to me and pretended to be scolding her disabled client, repeating over and over again things like, "You are being bad" and "Stop that," which I feel sure was really a covert massage for me to not write the previous post about hairdressers being used to help target me. I felt sad for her client, being drilled like that. I feel sad for me too.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.

Professional Hairdressers Used in the Sadistic Covert Targeting!

Cut was supposed to be a simple angle from bangs to the back.
  My experiences with my hair being ruined by hair dressers have been too many to be normal or a coincidence. This has been happening, an uncountable number of times, through the past couple decades, but here are just a few examples, including yesterday's experience.
    In 2009, a hairdresser applied temporary die to cover my grey hairs without my permission. This was very disturbing, because I intentionally keep my grey hairs and had even written an article about how important it was to me to hold onto that "wisdom."
   Around 2010 I was keeping my hair long but went to add in a few layers, in order to lighten it up a bit and the hair dresser sliced into my hair, in the opposite angle from what should have been done, forcing me to cut off most of my hair, because such a huge chunk was cut extremely short on the side where it was supposed to be long. Yesterday, I got a gift certificate to have my hair cut and this hair dresser did the exact same type of cut, at the wrong angle, that the other one did. . .and then proceeded to do the opposite of what I wanted with the rest of my hair as well! I politely kept reminding her of how I wanted it (a very simple style) - bringing her attention to the pictures she had in front of her as she ignored it and hacked up my hair. I left fuming and wondering if she was a mind control victim, who had no idea of what she was doing, or a puppet who was cruelly following her master's orders to upset me by ruining my hair. (And did she intentionally keep digging her comb into the open sore I have on the back of my head? She had parted it there, as if to see it, before she started digging into it. This is not a place where there is part or that needed to be parted.) I decided that it was probably mostly intentional and done to upset and provoke me. (I felt unnatural levels of frustration through the whole process and feel that this was from technological targeting of my brain.) But I had a right to my own natural anger too. So, I later called her to let her know how disappointed I was. I do not feel that this did any good.
   Apparently, when we "complain" about what they do to us they just do it more or worse the next time, although this is NOT "complaining" it is standing up against something that is wrong and mean. (I was technologically tortured after standing up for myself.) I, of course, will not go there again, but its shocking how many people and organizations are controlled by (or chose to follow) those who target me and it seems to be growing through the past few decades.
   This time my hair is so short, and the "mistake" so sever, that it can not be fixed without practically shaving my head. I was able to fix most of the rest of what she did and didn't do and can just tuck my hair behind ears until the severely chopped out section (shown in the picture above) grows out. Its not a big deal, if it were an honest mistake and if things like this had not been happening for decades almost everywhere I go. But this is not the case.
   I can honestly say that I am not picky about my hair. Before I began realizing the extent of the sadistic covert targeting, and how many people it uses, I used to think that my experiences with hairdressers were just my bad luck and, by around the year 2010, had thought that most hair dressers had an attitude which prevented them from doing what their clients want instead of their own thing. But I now feel that my bad experiences with hair dressers were mostly, if not ALL, part of the targeting and its pattern of intentionally doing the opposite of what their victim wants and using their puppets or mind control victims in various organizations in order to do it. My hair is not the only thing they have done the opposite of what I want and need with. This sort of cruelty has been happening in most aspects of my life and I need it to stop.

 P.S. I feel sad for people who are complete mind control victims, even when they hurt me. I feel far less sympathetic with people who CHOSE to follow that darkness, especially when behaving in ways that are mean or hurtful to others. I can't know for sure which category this hairdresser fell into. If I were 100% sure that she was just a mind control victim I would not have said anything to her. But my feelings count too and, either way, the malicious intent is there in their leaders/controllers and its hard to live with to say the least.


Give us STRENGTH, God...to find our way through bullets hidden in microwaves, and COURAGE, God...to make a STAND that saves our lives and FREEs our land.